"I thought the same thing," Lucy says with an understanding nod, "but I also found that without something to do, I had a lot of time to think. To overthink. To be bored. To wonder what I was missing so it might be a good distraction if nothing else and a paycheck can't be at all bad."

Money's never been one of those things that she's needed or wanted but it's nice to be able to buy what she needs. It still feels wrong that she's not using it on her mother, on her care but she's trying to be better about feeling less guilty. It's not easy.

"Maybe there's private security?" Lucy suggests, shrugging. "I have no idea because it's not my field but I'm sure there's gotta be something like that. Something where you don't have to work something you don't want to work."